this is the past.

Honestly, I still care. Every little aspect about it.



I went to my first opera last night; Il Barbiere di Siviglia. To be honest, it was pretty amazing(: Had a great time with the Midwood Heads. And I didn't fall asleep!
It was a memorable night; and finally got home at 4:30 in the morning- ahha don't ask why

fucking happy

Life's fucking great!
Okay I lied. But it's getting better =)
I swearrr, i love my besties ko(ol) kid and Woohoo. Lmao but I hate how they can flipping read me like a boook.
Pluss, I got my schedule changed<3 for the billionth time lmao. things are getting better and better (: mlia
Oh yeah, I think brownface(LOL 1st thing that came to mind) is tryna fuck me over.. tryna get with one of my best friends? Hah, real fucking classy. But whatever, do whatever you want, not like I care anymore =). LOL ZhuAnimal says my inner blackness comes out when I talk like that.
Shit, where would I be in life, if I didn't have my amazing friends beside me?

KiD CuDi

"And no sappy thoughts in my head
I feel like I'm peter pan minus the tights and purse
Happy to see how far I've come to the same place it began
My dreams, imagination perfectly at peace
So I move along a bit higher"
I swear, Kid Cudi is a genius.

PS: I still think about you, even if i try not to. I have to say, you have made a huge impact in my life, surprisingly. Because of you, I'm a changed person, even if I like it or not. And to tell you the truth, I deeply despise the changed me. It kinda surprised me how someone like you, could change someone like me, with barely doing anything. I'm going to try to stay away from people like you, cos if i don't, the same thing is going to happen, over and over again. brooklyntocomedontplease

The feeling of Care- free

I haven't been going to class lately. Well, I have, but I didn't go to about three classes today. Part of the reason for that is that well, I waited for the bus this morning for a good 40 minutes, causing me to miss third period. Fourth period i have gym, and i absolutely despise that class. So i ended up going to lunch instead, with my old program card. I know, mad slickk =) lol. And for my last period class, I didn't go because well, my teacher was absent. I mean, I signed myself in and everything, so it's all cool. I promise, I'm never ever going to cut again, because I'll owe NL one dollar every time i do so :/ This week will be the last week.
So when I got out of school today, it was around 2:30. I decided to go to Chinatown with my good friend Harry =). I swear, that kid is hilarious.We are so indecisive, it's ridiculous lmao. Went to a good bunch of bakeries until we finally settled in Quickly's. We ordered some sort of taro thingy, and it tasted reallly good. It was like my first time trying it too! I know, what a lame Asian. And he paid, cos he's a "nice guy". lmao thanks Harry =) The tapioca was greeen! After that, I went to Sam's place, cos I've been dying to go there LOL. And I needed to pick something up. Ginger is the cutest thing ever <3but she be barkin' at me like non-stop, waggin' her tail. rofl love that dog =).
Today has been a pretty good day, overall. Although I was thinking a heck lot about things, the day was pretty carefree. Surprisingly, I got home at a decent time, without momma yelling at me, wooh. I need more of these days, and I gotta feelin' it's gonna come, 'cos break is just around the corner<3

Time

Never give up on love. Even if everything you have worked for has been flushed down the drain, know that there are plenty of other people out there. Even if you had lost hope on love, always remember that it will always be there, somewhere in the rubble, where you lost that little speck of hope.
I have realized that time changes everything; from people's appearances to the way they act towards others. But change is inevitable, it will eventually happen even if you try to stop it.
Welps, a lot of change and inevitably happened during these few months. People lose and gain, and they move on. People stab others in the back, while others act like total jerks. While all this is going on, some others may have formed unbelievable friendships that would last a lifetime, while other friendships get torn down because of one little incident. Long story short, all of these scenarios have happened to me in these few months. I'm surprised that I've completed so much in such a short period of time. I've completed two of my songs, got back to "writing/drawing", made a countless amount of friends that have been there for me, found out who were "real and fake", re-organized my room, went karaoke with a few of my besties, and saved 50 bucks.
I have decided to start fresh this year. Trying to leave behind all that has happened last year, but for sure I'm taking some things with me. I'm sure new conflicts will arise, but hey, it's life and you learn from your problems for what to do next time. Friends come and go, but you gotta' hold onto them friendships if you really want it. And sometimes when you do hold onto them, your friend might think the other, and let go, completely.
Another thing that I have realized in these few months is that, letting go is one of the most difficult things to do. No matter who it is dealt with, no matter what the scenario, it's tough. It's hard, being with someone or something for such a great amount of time, then having to say good-bye the next day.
But hey, what do I know. I'm just some kid venting my thoughts and feelings through some stupid blog that no one reads.